31 Days of Living Art: Delight
My mom used to do this thing while we were growing up where if we used educated words, or "big" words, she would high five us and get really excited. At first it was exciting, and then the older we got I think we got annoyed with it. She still does it to this day, and now I think it's endearing. It's just something my mom does.
Tonight when we were texting and I guess I used an educated word, and she replied "Big word Kenz!! Proud of you!" I'm pretty sure the word was "compelled" which isn't that awesome, but my mom thought it was.
I just laughed and shook my head when I read it. But then this thought crossed my mind..."She delights in me."
One of my bigger insecurities is not wanting to feel like a burden to people, not wanting to be too much or not enough of what they need, being annoying, etc. I can't explain why that fear is always in the back of my mind, but it is.
So, one of the harder truths for me to live in is that the Lord delights in me, that he takes pleasure in the art that I make, the story I tell, the uniqueness of my heart from anyone else's. It's like I'm having to remind myself most of the time that he isn't heavy sighing at me or rolling his eyes.
He delights in the small things; things that might be unnoticed by other people. Just like I don't think a big word is a big deal, but my mom does because she delights in me, she's proud of me, and she goes so far as to make a big deal when I use my educated mind and use big words.
He delights in me when I am the most myself, because that's when I'm the most His. He delights in me when I win small battles in my head, when I show grace, when I do something I love because He loves it too. When I think of God delighting in me, I think of him cheering me on and celebrating me, and who doesn't want their very own cheering section, right?
He's like a proud parent. He puts your finger painting on the refrigerator like it's a Van Gogh.
If you hear one thing from this blog, please let it be that the Lord delights in you. He sees you.
"The Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love."
Tonight when we were texting and I guess I used an educated word, and she replied "Big word Kenz!! Proud of you!" I'm pretty sure the word was "compelled" which isn't that awesome, but my mom thought it was.
I just laughed and shook my head when I read it. But then this thought crossed my mind..."She delights in me."
One of my bigger insecurities is not wanting to feel like a burden to people, not wanting to be too much or not enough of what they need, being annoying, etc. I can't explain why that fear is always in the back of my mind, but it is.
So, one of the harder truths for me to live in is that the Lord delights in me, that he takes pleasure in the art that I make, the story I tell, the uniqueness of my heart from anyone else's. It's like I'm having to remind myself most of the time that he isn't heavy sighing at me or rolling his eyes.
He delights in the small things; things that might be unnoticed by other people. Just like I don't think a big word is a big deal, but my mom does because she delights in me, she's proud of me, and she goes so far as to make a big deal when I use my educated mind and use big words.
He delights in me when I am the most myself, because that's when I'm the most His. He delights in me when I win small battles in my head, when I show grace, when I do something I love because He loves it too. When I think of God delighting in me, I think of him cheering me on and celebrating me, and who doesn't want their very own cheering section, right?
He's like a proud parent. He puts your finger painting on the refrigerator like it's a Van Gogh.
If you hear one thing from this blog, please let it be that the Lord delights in you. He sees you.
"The Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love."
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